fifty words or less

I realized the other day that my profile/blog description is now outdated as I am no longer a twenty-something. It makes me wonder what has changed in the last five or so years since I created that little blurb.

My life was in a good place five years ago, surrounded by community and deep friendships. My nieces and nephew adored me. It was not without struggle, though. I'm wondering if I'd rather go back five years and do it all over again or if I'm glad that I'm on this side of thirty.

It doesn't really matter, I suppose, because I can't actually go back in time.

Day 1: Reflection

This is the time of night where I typically waste time on facebook catching up on every status that I missed throughout the day. Instead, I'm sitting here after a very long and emotionally draining day of work and then a lovely dinner with good people that I like a lot so a great end to this day.

This day was a whirlwind, another day of "hanging on" at work. My friend's right; at some point it gets too tiring to keep "hanging on". I feel like that time is coming quicker than I'm ready for. If I had a way out right now, I think it wouldn't be much of a decision. It has left me wondering what is really holding me back. The easy answer is money. It isn't easy making it all work on one income with no support from anyone else. It all falls on my shoulders.

The biggest expense is of course my house. I LOVE my house and feel like it was a blessing, but I also know that if I were renting I would have more wiggle room as far as what kind of income I would require.

It's definitely something to at least consider.